25th April 2024
What is real friendship? Since I’ve been here, I have noticed that family is more significant than friends, as one would expect. But I’ve noticed that if you don’t put yourself forward, and invite people we know, out for dinner, or generally hang out, no one reciprocates. It’s always us that makes the first move, and it’s bugging me.
We always have a good time with people, plenty of conversation and laughter, all feeling perfectly normal, but at the end we go our separate ways, promising to get together again soon, but nothing happens.
I noticed that when I used to go to the Design Yard for meetings everyone was friendly and helpful, but as soon as I walked out through the door I was forgotten.
Does there have to be an “angle”? Do people use friendship to get advantage? are we only attractive if we have something to offer? That I’m not sure. I have spoken in the past that “ putting the kettle on” over here is an unknown concept, you might get too comfortable, and stay too long.
There are a few that I know here that I believe are genuine up to a point, they live in their bubble of politics and religion and keep others at arms length.
We have started an experiment to see of our “friends” if any will invite us out without prompting, I have suspicions that none will.
And that will prove that there is no soul here, “have a good day” is a hollow saying, in the same way as “take care” doesn’t mean they do.
In the end it’s not the end of the world, I have Kelli, and she has me, that’s all we need.
But it does raise another question, maybe they just don’t like me?
Another Lifetime to go 