Day 2931 Martin’s suffering

24th August 2025

It was almost a repeat of yesterday, yesterday we picked up another dresser, this time from Zeeland, yet again we are decked out with products. Hopefully this one can be flipped, but I’ve run out of trolleys, so everyday they have to be manhandled outside.

I managed to finish the repair of the last drawer on the refinish project, now we want to get rid of it all, the same goes for the blue unit that needs to be collected.

I desperately need to get on with the kitchen island, the top will be done and waiting for the structure to be built. Making it from an old door was not such a good idea, from my point of view.

It would have been a lot easier to build it from scratch. All the paint removal took over three weeks, and bored me to death at times. Before I can prime I have to remove all traces of the stripper, I bloody hate the prospect of doing that.

A major change from our Sunday routine was that we went for dinner. Matt prepared a chicken in sun dried tomatoes and a garlic sauce, served with rice, delicious. I took a bottle of wine, a long time since I had a glass, which helped the meal go down.

Earlier I had a nearly two hour conversation with Martin, my friend from Whitney on Wye. He had a few issues with the “ Teams” app, the one the replaced Skype, there was no sound and no pictures. I sent him some settings that he needed for his iMac, then everything went okay. He is going down hill, losing a lot of weight, and in pain most of the time. His doctor has stopped him taking the massive quantities of painkillers, and wants him to change to a fentanyl type drug, which he refused, she then told him that she didn’t want to treat him and asked him to leave. Now that doesn’t seem to be the action of someone who follows the Do no Harm policy. We got quite emotional, I’m so far away, and frustrated that I cannot help him, he wants to go now, he’s lived with pain and suffered all the time I’ve known him, and no, it’s not because of me, he is ready to leave.

He continues to send me his favourite music that I add to a playlist, I play it all the time, I feel close to him listening to that.

He is not frightened, his faith in the spirit world is strong, and he will become a non physical being, free from suffering, and imprinted in our memories.