1st July 2022
It was a bad night again, and I didn’t handle it very well.
I had to get up in the night which woke Kelli up, and then she couldn’t get back to sleep. Her flight or fight kicked in and that was that.
There was no point in trying to sleep as that aggravated the situation even more.
I got up and sat on the sofa watching the world decent into crisis.
I felt bad about starting this train wreck, but I could not turn the clock back, nature is nature.
There was no point in trying to calm her down, I was the bad guy, and I didn’t know what I should do.
I sat getting angrier and angrier, but I kept a lid on it as it would not have helped the situation.
My anger spilled out into the day, and although Kelli had calmed down enough to take a bike ride I was not the best company.
We worked in the garage, I was stripping paint from a pair of side tables whilst Kelli was sanding a dresser, the atmosphere was strained.
By the end of the day I wanted it to be erased, these are not the greatest times, but we’ll get over it and life will resume as normal.
Another Lifetime to go 